New Year Expectations

I love the start of the New Year.  Everyone is so filled with hope and good expectations.  I hear so often “this is going to be a good year”  or “this year is our year”.  Everyone is so ready and eager to start working towards the New Years good prospects.  I just feel so surrounded by Positive Vibes.

My New Year always starts with eagerness because I know that it won’t be long before Cynthia returns from her month holiday.  Our first week back together is always spent spring cleaning.  This fills me with that New Year Positive Vibe feeling.  Once my house is in order, scrubbed from top to bottom, junk chucked, everything else neat and in place I can start my year.  One of the most satisfying feelings for me is to have my house in order.  It kind of gets my mind in order.

Once my mind is in order the chaos normally starts.  Because then I need to get everyone else’s mind in order.  And that’s not often received as enthusiastically as I offer it.  I draw up lists.   Lists for DIY, lists for new décor ideas, lists for gardening projects, lists for the office, lists for school, lists for projects for the girls to do which will ultimately give them a better quality of life somehow, lists for meal plans, lists for pet training, lists, lists, lists. 

I love lists.  They give me such a sense of purpose and fulfilment.  Lists mean that I know where I am going, and how I’m going to get there.  But obviously once I have everything down on paper…..I need to do them, so that I can tick them off.  How fulfilling to be able to look at my list at the end of the day and see a whole lot of things have been ticked off.  So I try to inspire everyone to do what I need done so that I can tick things off.  This generally does not go down well at all. 

Generally the person has other priorities or just doesn’t feel like doing the things that are on my list, generally because most of them require large amounts of physical labour and hard work.  Of which I am more than happy to supervise with a cup of tea in hand.  This creates grumpiness and relative doses of resentfulness.  Which then seems to trigger off my levels of grumpiness and resentfulness.  I battle to grasp that others are not as enthusiastic about my ideas as I am.  I mean really – in the end everyone gets to benefit.  If I am happy, naturally you shall be too.

And so my New Year Expectations go down the drain along with most of the general populations.

I love order and symmetry.  I love making lists on how to obtain it.  And I love having people create this for me.  And I especially love it when they do it enthusiastically. 

So this year, in order to enjoy my New Years Expectations I have decided to learn how to do most things on my list without the effort of having to inspire those around me.  I have decided to hire someone who is paid to do everything on my list. 

So at the beginning of this New Year, I am once again filled with hope and expectations and writing up those lists more vigorously than before!  I can’t wait to see all that I will be able to tick of my lists this year!